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Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Ernie Kurtz speaks about the new book Beyond Belief

Beyond Belief: Agnostic Musings for 12 Step Life -  daily reflections for nonbelievers, freethinkers and EVERYONE

Over 700,000 daily devotionals are sold each year. Hazelden dominates the market with Twenty-four Hours a Day selling over 8 million copies, Languge of Letting Go, a 20 year book for codependents is still in Amazon's top 900 of all book sales, AA's own Daily Reflections sells over 150,000 each year. There are books for women, men, newcomers and young people. Finally, there is a secular offering that, while good for one and all, isn't something nonbelievers have to shoehorn their worldview into.

Ernie Kurtz received his Ph.D. in the History of American Civilization from Harvard University in 1978. Dr. Kurtz was the first researcher to be granted unrestricted access to the archives of Alcoholics Anonymous. Hazeleden had the wherewithal to publish Ernie’s Ph.D. dissertation—the book that resulted was, Not God: A History of Alcoholics Anonymous. Along with Katherine Ketcham Ernie gave us, The Spirituality of Imperfection: Modern Wisdom from Classic Stores (1992), and a book that demonstrates Kurtz acute understanding of addiction, Shame and Guilt (revised and updated in 2007). For those in the know, catching an Ernie Kurtz lecture on his academic study of spirituality would be a life-altering experience. For those of us who missed that opportunity, there is more of Kurtz on addiction and spirituality in the 1999 The Collected Ernie Kurtz. There are been other books and other writings, both scholarly and popular but today, Rebellion Dogs are honored to share Dr. Kurtz’s experience with reading the musings of Beyond Belief.

            One meaning of reflection, according to the Oxford English Dictionary, is “the action of turning (back) or fixing the thoughts on some subject; meditation, deep or serious consideration.”This treasure of a book offers spurs to reflection and more. Drawing on a rich variety of often surprising sources, each day's reading provides not a mere bite but a full meal of thoughts for the coming or just-past day. Since my mornings tend to be rushed, Beyond Belief soon moved itself into my mid-afternoon “break” period, where it could shed more leisurely light both backwards and forwards.

            Beyond Belief terms its offerings musings rather than “meditations.”The O.E.D. gives the first meaning of the verb muse as “to be absorbed in thought; to meditate continuously in silence; to ponder.”  Absorbed . . . ponder: this book is not light reading. I have not so far wanted to fight with it, but I do find Beyond Belief often challenging, sometimes provocative, unfailingly stimulating.

            The book is aimed at a general 12-Step readership, but it is mindful that there heretofore exist no such aids for unbelievers, freethinkers, and the unconventionally spiritual. Given that the latest Pew survey found that twenty percent of the American people list their religious affiliation as “None,” it is certainly time that the Recovery world took into consideration this population's needs. Beyond Belief addresses that need in a confident, non-aggressive way. I doubt that any believer will find anything objectionable in its pages. This believer, for one, finds much that is spiritually helpful.

            If I have one criticism of this book it is that its musings are too rich. On quite a few pages I wished to pause and think after virtually every sentence. For many, reading Beyond Belief will require a pen or pencil in hand and perhaps a notebook on the side.

            This is the first daily reflection book of which I know that offers a lengthy (17-page) “Notes” section as well as a full Bibliography. The Notes are far more than mere citations, often presenting brief additional discussion and even new material that more frequently than not is as rich as the text itself.  

            In addition to the Notes and Bibliography, the end-matter of Beyond Belief contains a full Index that allows searching out individual musings on just about any topic. Having problems with “ego”? Check out May 29, August 8, September 24 or seven other dates. Polishing your gratitude? Flip to March 2, June 16, November 12 or eleven other dates.

            Beyond Belief will enrich anyone interested in living a 12-Step life.

Ernest Kurtz, Ph.D. (author of The Spirituality of Imperfection and Not-God: A History of Alcoholics Anonymous)
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Friday, July 22, 2011

Why do attempts to tell the Agnositc story of AA recovery get moth-balled?

 
The Literature Desk at GSO (Alcoholics Anonymous) was contacted in June 2011 with the request to confirm, deny or clarify the enclosed “history of an agnostics/atheists pamphlet for all of AA.”  Julio of the literature desk explained that they get many requests and can’t reply.  It seems that with so many specific dates and names that some of this history could be researched to see if it is indeed accurate. 
 
The consolation prize was that although there is no initiative to produce literature directed at secular recovery among AA members, despite the seeming wide endorsement from the Literature Subcommittee since 1975, AA is proceeding with a Spiritual Experience pamphlet that will include non-theistic experience.  Here is what Julio said:  

“As you know the pamphlet under development will cover as wide a range of spiritual experiences as possible, including sharing from agnostic and atheist A.A.s.  In 2011 Conference recommended that:

 ‘the trustees’ Literature Committee continue to develop literature which focuses on spirituality that includes stories from atheists and agnostics who are sober in Alcoholics Anonymous. The committee expressed support for the trustees’ efforts to develop a pamphlet which reflects the wide range of spiritual experiences of A.A. members and asked that a draft pamphlet or progress report be brought to the 2012 Conference Committee on Literature for consideration.’”  

Although I have not been able to confirm the following document I want to share it.  The agnostic story is almost written out of AA archival history.  This tendency dates back to Bill Wilson’s slanted accounts of Jim B, who Bill calls “Ed” in the essays of the Twelve Traditions.  Bill suggests that Ed was a proselytizing atheists devoted to persuading the few members of the day that AA would be better without all “the God stuff.”  The story is told that “Ed” gets drunk, finds God, crawls back and gets in line with the dominant AA way of seeing.  As many know, Ed, Jim B in reality is responsible for “as we understand Him” being added to the Twelve Steps, which at very least, opened the door to sobriety without an absolute belief in God, as defined by religion.  

Here is what has been recorded to date, an identical account of what was sent to GSO where comment was declined.
History - Proposals to Create a Pamphlet for the
Non-Believer / Agnostic / Atheist Alcoholic

Several proposals have been considered in the past concerning the development of a pamphlet directed to the non-believer / agnostic / atheist alcoholic. This concept has been explored at least six separate times in the past:
  • 1975-1976
  • 1981-1982
  • 1988-1989
  • 1995-1996
  • 1997
  • 2000-2001
Each of these cases is summarized below. The actions of the trustees’ and Conference Literature Committees are reviewed.

1975-1976
Summary: In September 1975 a letter came to the office from Al L., a member in Florida, requesting that the trustees’ Literature Committee consider publishing a pamphlet for agnostics. In February 1976 the trustees’ Committee appointed a subcommittee to study the issue and report back. At the July 1976 trustees’ committee meeting, the subcommittee presented a preliminary report recommending the publication of this pamphlet. However, at the October 1976 meeting, the trustees’ Committee decided not to forward the item to the Conference for consideration.

Al L. wrote in his September letter, in part:
“I’m a happy non-belligerent agnostic. I feel that many non-believers miss the A.A. board before they find out that they are also welcome. The ‘God bit’ frightens then off before they leaven that their spiritual beliefs or non-beliefs need not deprive them of the blessings of A.A.

“Q: Is it possible for the powers that be in A.A. to publish a pamphlet designed specifically for Agnostics? I don’t mean the Big Book’s version – Chapter IV We Agnostics – that doesn’t make sense to me. Never did. …

“Many agnostics believe at first that A.A. with all of its ‘Let God Do It’ and ‘That one is God, may you find him now’ is really a thinly veiled attempt to shove ‘religion’ down their throats. You and I of course know that isn’t the case….

“I would not advise that such a pamphlet for Agnostics imply or infer that ‘God’ will get you sooner or later or that you will necessarily come to believe in the power of prayer or that you must ‘turn it over.’

“My logic, common sense and dedication to A.A. keeps me sober – and I don’t think the non-spiritual have been given a fair shake.”

Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, February 1976:
The Committee recommended that the preparation of a pamphlet for Agnostics be studied by a sub-committee consisting of Ed S. and Paula C.

Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, August 1976:
The subcommittee prepared a preliminary report to the Trustees’ Literature Committee in June 1976:
The Sub-Committee to the Trustees’ Literature Committee recommended that:
A. A pamphlet for the Agnostic and/or Atheist be compiled and written using mainly from existing A.A. material on this subject. Their reasons follow:
1. This pamphlet is vitally needed to carry the message to both newcomers and old timers.
2. That Alcoholics Anonymous, despite first appearances, is neither sectarian nor religious, and is open to all alcoholics of every persuasion or non-persuasion. The number of non-believers in the program, or who need the A.A. program but are discouraged by its theism, may be more substantial than is probably realized.
3. The chapter “To The Agnostic” in the Big Book is fine as a start but more material is needed to assure non-believers that they are not merely deviants, but full, participating members in the A.A. Fellowship without qualification.
4. This pamphlet will probably also help the God believer in A.A. to understand his/her own spiritual values better, as well as to develop tolerance and understanding of many newcomers to A.A.
5. This pamphlet would affirm in clear and concise fashion that “the only requirement for membership in A.A. is a desire to stop drinking” and that our founders and the group conscience of the fellowship does not and has never considered an alcoholic’s spiritual beliefs as necessarily relevant to the achievement of healthy and happy sobriety.
B. A draft should begin as soon as possible. The sub-committee will collect material from extant literature including the Grapevine. George Gordon [Class A trustee and chair of the trustees’ Literature Committee] and Al L. will serve as consultants on this project.
1. If it appears that this pamphlet geared to the Agnostic and/or Atheist will not augment the aims above, then it will be discontinued by the Committee at this time.
C. It was agreed that this type of pamphlet does not fall under the category “special groups of alcoholics” literature but concerns a more fundamental and worldwide problem that has resulted in much misinterpretation of the A.A. Fellowship.
The August 1976 trustees’ Literature Committee report indicates that this document was reviewed: REPORT FROM SUB-COMMITTEE ON A PAMPHLET FOR AGNOSTICS - The sub-committee reported by submitting a two page document. It was suggested that the subcommittee now write a new version of their recommendations in greater detail and present it to the 1977 Conference Committee on Literature before further action is taken on its preparation.

Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, October 1976:
REPORT FROM SUB-COMMITTEE ON THE EXPLORATION OF AN AGNOSTIC/ATHEIST PAMPHLET The committee read the report and decided not to ask the 1977 Conference Literature Committee to consider a pamphlet for Agnostics / Atheists at this time.

[Unfortunately, after an exhaustive search, we cannot find a final report of this subcommittee, nor any reason for why the preliminary report’s recommendations were not adopted.]


1981-1982
Summary: In October 1981, former trustee Ed S., who had worked on the subcommittee relating to this proposal for a pamphlet to the Agnostic/Atheist in 1976, wrote to the trustees’ Literature Committee requesting that the idea be revisited. The trustees’ Literature Committee reviewed the material in January 1982 and declined to pursue this pamphlet.

Ed S.’s October 1981 letter reads, in part:
“Even though it would not be a best seller, could we have a pamphlet written by an agnostic or an atheist for those who have trouble believing? Possible title: ‘Came Not to Believe.’”

Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, January 1982:
The committee declined to recommend the publication of a pamphlet intended for agnostics or atheists who have trouble believing.


1988-1989
Summary: In June of 1988, the Conference secretary received a request from the sitting delegate in Area 59-Eastern Pennsylvania, Bill G., requesting that the Trustees’ Literature Committee consider a pamphlet for the ‘non-believer.’ The matter, including several pieces of background described below, went to the trustees’ Literature Committee in January 1989, and to the Conference Literature Committee in April 1989. The Conference Literature Committee did not recommend the production of this pamphlet.

Area 59 delegate Bill G. wrote in his June 1988 letter:
“[This pamphlet] would help those in the Fellowship who by their individual views of life, have never accepted the concept of God or a Higher Power in their recoveries.

“As you can see, Jack M. wrote previously to GSO and received a reply from Susan. The subject was presented to District 59-24 who elected to take no action, but to take it to the area committee. This occurred at our latest area meeting on June 5, 1988, where it was discussed briefly during the Summaries and Actions portion of the meeting. It was the sense of that meeting that the matter be referred in the appropriate manner to the Conference Coordinator for further consideration.”

The letter Bill mentions, from Jack M. to the GSO, was included in the background as well. Jack wrote to the GSO on February 1, 1988:
“Subject: Article in October, 1987 A.A. Grapevine, Inc. “Is There Room-Enough In A.A.?” J.L., Oakland, CA
“This letter is prompted by the subject article, subsequent correspondence with an Editor of the Grapevine as well as the author of the article and, perhaps most of’ all, my devotion to A.A. and the people in that fellowship with whom I exchange patience and kindness in my recovery.
“My own continuous sobriety of thirteen years in A.A. can only be described as unexplained phenomenon. Doubtless I was an agnostic and have gradually become atheistic over the years. In my first few months of sobriety in A.A. a very kind and patient member with some thirty years of continuous sobriety in A.A. suggested, nay, encouraged me to speak openly of my uncertainty of a higher power so that others with similar views would perhaps feel the same close connection in the fellowship as I did and still do. I was lucky to exchange views with that particular member at that critical moment in my recovery and have tried to follow the suggestion to the best of such ability as I have.
“With a view toward doing a little homework I just looked through As Bill Sees It and found a dozen or so references to atheism and agnosticism under the index heading of Higher Power. All of the entries appear to me to persuade the reader that believing is far, far better than non-believing. I can’t understand why former non-believers hardly ever tire of trying to convince or persuade non-believers to change, particularly in A.A. which is a program of attraction, because the thought of trying to persuade a believer to change never even enters my mind.
“To quote the author of the subject article, “Never would I seek to explain A.A. in my own atheistic interpretation to an alcoholic who believes in God and suggest that he would do well to modify his perception in order to get or stay sober. Instead I can speak to the person about God from the many references and explanations which abound in A.A. literature. Yet it is probably more difficult the other way around. A God-oriented A.A. member doesn’t have a large supply of ideas from atheists available to share with the newcomer atheist. Too few of us state our positions in meetings; too little is written in A.A.’s literature.
“There just doesn’t seem to be any A.A. General Service Conference-approved literature written specifically for the non-believer. Is such a project under way? If not, there must be a way to put together a pamphlet which unconditionally encourages the newcomer who happens to be a non-believer without contradicting steps two, three, five, six, seven, eleven and twelve or parts (b) and (c) of the chapter on How It Works in the Basic Text for Alcoholics Anonymous. Such a collection of encouraging words would not have to be adversarial, antagonistic, cogent, defensive, patronizing or persuasive. A foreword could even be included which would explain the apparent conflict, at least to some newcomers, between the statement in our preamble regarding A.A. not being allied with any sect, denomination, organization or institution and the fact that we all rise, the ancient act of fealty, and recite the prayer beginning Our Father at the close of each meeting. The foreword could also contain a clear statement that belief in a higher power is not at any time a requirement for membership or for getting and staying sober.”

Another letter from an A.A. member, Tom M. of Florida, was also included in the background. Tom wrote to the GSO January 2, 1989. Excerpts of his long letter follow below:
“It is (we hope) the initial step in a process that may ultimately lead to the publication of a new pamphlet for A.A. members that supports sobriety and recovery in A.A. from a non-theistic (agnostic or atheist) point of view.
“I know that at first this might seem to be quite unnecessary, because after all A.A. has been doing nicely for fifty odd years without it. I hope in what follows I can show that a pamphlet on this subject may indeed help some of our fellow alcoholics.
“The first thing I would like to point out, is that there is big difference between an agnostic or atheist and a person who does not practice a religion. Both agnostics and atheists do in fact have a moral and spiritual base founded on some common humanistic principles which are derived by personal choice. Both agnosticism and atheism provide as valid a spiritual base (albeit it’s different) as religion does for Christian, Jewish, Muslim and Islamic people who have come into A.A.
“’A.A. IS NOT A RELIGIOUS PROGRAM. IT IS A SPIRITUAL PROGRAM.’ Case finished, right. Wrong. We are not talking about religion here, we are talking about a person’s right to have a differing spiritual base than the majority.
“The prevailing notion in A.A. is simply that a lack of belief in GOD or a ‘higher power’ automatically indicates a lack of spirituality, and of course, ‘spirituality’ is required for recovery. It is my personal experience, that most ‘GOD or higher power’ people treat agnostics and atheists as if we lack something, as if there is something wrong with us. We lack nothing and there is nothing wrong with either agnosticism or atheism.
“The other side of the coin is that most agnostics, or atheists (in and out of A.A.) think of A.A. as religious in nature, and they will not be converted or coerced into changing this position by the use of the term higher power.
“And so the quandary. Few would dispute that A.A. is the most successful recovery program ever found for the disease of alcoholism. So what does an alcoholic who is an agnostic or atheist do to recover. A.A. suggests (rather strongly I would say, since a whole chapter in the Big Book is devoted to the subject) that the first endeavor is to forsake their fundamental beliefs and spiritual base.
“Now nobody in A.A. would ever think of asking a Catholic or Jew to give up their spiritual base to get sober, and yet these same people without so much as blinking an eye, assume that an agnostic or atheist ought to do this just as a matter of course.
“The result is that many agnostic and atheists leave A.A. in short order….
“Some of us believe that is time to share our experiences on a more the one-on-one basis, and so this letter about a pamphlet. We believe that we have accumulated experiences that can give hope, strength, and comfort to newly sober people in A.A. who are of the agnostic or atheistic persuasion. Our intent is not to “change” A.A. or the Big Book. We only mean to share our recovery with our own kind, so that they can avail themselves of what we have found, and we would like to be able to do that openly and as part of the mainstream of A.A.
“We cannot do that. To declare your agnosticism or atheism at many meetings (at least in this part of the country) brings upon oneself knowing stares and sometimes repudiation from someone in the group. Now, I personally don’t have this problem anymore. My longevity in sobriety is given respect, but I am still thought of as a paradox or oddball. I can handle that just fine, now. The question that bothers me, is that ‘Can a newly sober agnostic or atheist handle being treated as an oddball?’ Many cannot.”
Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, January 1989:
Pamphlet for the "non-believer"
After agreeing that the term "non-believer" is inaccurate and misleading, the committee recommends to the General Service Board that the Conference Literature Committee be asked to consider a proposal for some sort of spiritual literature in response to requests from atheists and agnostics.

Ø  Conference Literature Committee, April 1989:
Additional Committee considerations
The committee discussed the proposal for some sort of spiritual literature for atheists and agnostics and did not see a sufficient need to take action at this time.


1995-1996
Summary: In November of 1995, the Conference secretary received a request from the sitting delegate in Area 49-Southeastern New York, Paul S., requesting that the Trustees’ and Conference Literature Committees consider a pamphlet “directed to the concerns the non-believer (atheist/agnostic).” (Note: Paul S. was also serving as the chair of the Conference Literature Committee in 1996.) The matter, including several pieces of background described below, went to the trustees’ Literature Committee in January 1996, and to the Conference Literature Committee in April 1996. The Conference Literature Committee did not recommend the production of this pamphlet.

Area 49 delegate Paul S. wrote in his November 1995 letter:
“At our Area Assembly held on November 11, Area 49 voted with substantial unanimity to request that the 1996 General Service Conference agenda include a proposal to consider a pamphlet directed to the concerns of the non-believer (atheist and/or agnostic) alcoholic.

“Such a pamphlet might be directed on three levels:
(a) to the active alcoholic who is unfamiliar with our program of recovery but who is intimidated by the misconception that Alcoholics Anonymous is a religious program; such people are unlikely to be exposed to Chapter 3 of the Big Book until they have overcome their fears or suspicions about A.A.;

“(b) to the newcomer to Alcoholics Anonymous who may be misled by some of our common practices, such as use of the Serenity Prayer or the Lord’s Prayer at meetings and the fact that many of our meetings are held in houses of worship; for these people some help with understanding the idea of a “power greater than ourselves” may be valuable; and

“(c) to the non-alcoholic, whether professional or lay, who may be in a position to refer alcoholics to A.A. but who may be reluctant to do so because of the perception that ours is a religious program; the example of legal attacks on court references to A.A. on First Amendment (separation of church and state) grounds comes to mind.

“Southeast New York deliberately chose not to propose a specific text or suggested content because of the belief that drafting of such language might best be left to the appropriate Trustees’ and Conference Committees. Indeed, the question of whether the presentation should be by way of stories or by way of discussion was also thought to be a matter for Trustee and/or Conference decision.”

In response to this proposal, Jim C., an appointed committee member on the trustees’ Literature Committee, wrote to Paul S. on February 8, 1996. This letter was included as background for the Conference Committee.

Jim wrote:
“I wanted to give you my views in writing about the proposed pamphlet directed ‘to the concerns of the non-believer (atheist and/or agnostic) alcoholic.’ As you may remember I voiced a minority opinion as to sending it to the Conference Literature Committee based on the narrowness of the title.

“I think a pamphlet based on the three points stated in your letter to [Conference Secretary] Richard B. on November 21, 1995, would be a valuable piece of literature for our fellowship. However, I think as suggested in the three points, it should cover a broader segment than the title of non-believer (atheists and/or agnostics) suggests. I believe it would be more valuable if its title was directed to the concerns of those who may wonder if A.A. is or is not a religious organization, or is affiliated with any religion because of common practices or meeting places as set out in your point (b). I do not want to pick a title, but something like ‘A.A., Religious or Secular?’ or ‘A.A. and Religion’ or even ‘God as we Understand Him,’ might be more to the points suggested.”

Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, January 1996
Review a request to publish a pamphlet directed to the concerns of the non-believer (atheist and/or agnostic) alcoholic: The committee forwarded the request for a pamphlet directed to the concerns of the non-believer (atheist and/or agnostic) to the Conference Literature Committee.

Ø  Conference Literature Committee, April 1996
Additional Committee considerations
The committee considered a request for a pamphlet directed to the concerns of the non-believer (atheist and/or agnostic) and made no recommendations.


1997
Summary: The trustees’ Literature Committee received a request from Naomi D. of the We Agnostics Group in New York in July 1997, requesting that the committee consider published a pamphlet titled “A.A. is Not a Religion.” The trustees’ Literature Committee declined to pursue this pamphlet.

Naomi D.’s July 1997 letter reads, in part:
“Consider a pamphlet entitled ‘A.A. is Not a Religion.’ This would be very helpful to newcomers (who may be looking for excuses) and would also be useful in the P.I. or C.P.C. Areas.”

Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, November 1997
Literature Review Subcommittee report:
A request to consider a pamphlet entitled ‘A.A. is Not a Religion’ came from the ‘We Agnostics of NYC’ group. This would appear to be a request somewhat along the line of another request which was submitted by the Southeast New York Area Assembly in December 1995 and passed on to the 1996 Conference Literature Committee. That request was to consider a pamphlet directed to the concerns of the non-believer (atheist and/or agnostic) alcoholic.

The 1996 Conference Committee considered that request in their deliberations and made no recommendations. The subcommittee feels that in the absence of other similar requests that the ‘no recommendations’ stance of the 1996 Conference Committee stand.


2000-2001
Summary: In late 1999, the trustees’ Literature Committee received several letters from atheist / agnostic A.A. members, requesting that they consider producing a pamphlet for the nonbeliever or a pamphlet explaining that A.A. is a spiritual rather than religious program. The trustees’ Committee appointed a subcommittee to consider this matter, which met throughout 2000 and early 2001. The subcommittee was in favor of a pamphlet describing and specifying the spiritual aspects of A.A., and passed its work to the Conference Literature Committee at the 2001 Conference. The Conference Literature Committee did not recommend the production of this pamphlet.

Letters were received from at least 5 A.A. members, most of them from the New York area, in November and December 1999, rallying around the concept of creating a pamphlet for the nonbeliever or a pamphlet clarifying the spiritual aspects of A.A. The trustees’ Literature Committee discussed this in January 2000.

Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, January 2000:
Pamphlet for the Non-Believer
Following a lengthy discussion regarding the focus of a pamphlet for the non-believer or a pamphlet explaining that A.A. is a spiritual rather than a religious program, a subcommittee was formed to give this further consideration and report back to the trustees' Literature Committee at the July meeting, The subcommittee will be chaired by Beth R. and will include David S., Jan P., George Vaillant and Lois F., secretary.

Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, July 2000:
Pamphlet Explaining that A.A. Is Spiritual Rather than Religious
Beth R., chair of the subcommittee overseeing a pamphlet explaining that A.A. is spiritual rather than religious, reported that the subcommittee met by conference call on Wednesday, July 19, 2000 to share ideas with regard to the direction this pamphlet should take. Various approaches were discussed and the subcommittee unanimously agreed that there is a need for this pamphlet for many reasons. The subcommittee plans to meet again on Monday, July 31 when the General Service Board Meeting adjourns to continue discussing ideas.

The full committee discussed this proposed pamphlet and suggested that it should emphasize the inclusiveness of A.A. pointing out that A.A.'s principles are culturally adaptable. The essence may include a definition of spirituality.

Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, October 2000:
Proposed pamphlet on the spiritual/religious aspects of A.A.
Subcommittee chair Beth R. reported on the outcome of the October 10th conference call. All members of the subcommittee agreed to continue working on development of a draft pamphlet to describe the spiritual aspects of A.A. for the benefit of newcomers and interested professionals. The subcommittee plans to meet Monday, October 30, 2000 to discuss proposed titles and proposed contents - whether to include individual stories and a process for collecting stories. All committee members and guests were invited to send their own working definition of spirituality to the committee secretary by December 15, 2000.

Ø  Trustees’ Literature Committee, January 2001:
Proposed "Spiritual Variety" Pamphlet
Subcommittee chair, Beth R., reported that this subcommittee has met twice since the last committee meeting. Beth presented a report on this proposed pamphlet outlining the purpose for such a pamphlet, suggested title options and a suggested format. The committee agreed to forward this report and two letters expressing opposition to this pamphlet received before January 15, 2001 to the 2001 Conference Literature Committee.

Ø  Conference Literature Committee, April 2001:
Additional Committee Considerations:
The committee discussed the trustees’ Literature Committee proposal for a new pamphlet that includes a variety of spiritual experience and took no action. The committee suggested that the trustees’ Literature Committee consider adding or clarifying existing pamphlets such as ‘This is A.A.’ and ‘A Newcomer Asks’ to address a variety of individual interpretations and individual experience of spirituality in Alcoholics Anonymous.

The committee suggested that the trustees’ P.I. and C.P.C. committees consider addressing in their literature that A.A. is not allied with any religion.

Thursday, March 31, 2011

20Questions about AA Freethinkers and Agnostics



For years of my sobriety I was a closet atheist.  Fake-it-until-you-make-it was a fix-all suggestion from my sponsor which came into play with almost every area of transition to sober life.  Acting as-if helped me find my value system and break from my narcissistic alcoholic ways.  Twenty years later I was still feigning belief in God. 

Because I thought believing and belonging (to the fellowship) were synonymous, I kept my doubt to myself and danced around God-talk with anecdotal avoidance.    As I became more comfortable with my disbelief and speaking about it, I found more AA members that don`t practice AA with a God-conscious focus.  I have found AA meetings that were secular and over the last five to 10 years there has been heated discussion between liberal and conservative members.  It`s an important and emotional discussion that continues around coffee pots.  Here is my own experience in the form of the most asked questions I have faced, or dare I say, ``concerns`` in what I will call: 20 questions about We Agnostics of the 21st century.

1)  Isn’t shunning God a form of intellectual pride?
 Dr. Bob closes his Big Book talk with “If you think you are an atheist, an agnostic, a skeptic, or have any other form of intellectual pride which keeps you from accepting what is in this book, I feel sorry for you.”  This is a divisive statement. It was a statement that was reasonable for the times.  If Dr. Bob knew the scores of sober agnostics in our midst today, would he have used more inclusive language?  Some atheists feel smugly superior, just like some believers do. Most doubters and nonbelievers want everyone to be welcome as equals in the fellowship, not being expected to adopt anyone else’s belief or deny their own. 

2)  We Agnostics is a chapter devoted to you isn’t it?
The Big Book suggests that disbelief is a dangerous form of self-will and a one-way-ticket to relapse.  Some of our members take exception with the idea that their God-free efforts are second-rate. Today, doubters and atheists are counting days, years and decades of continuous sobriety. 

3)  Don’t Agnostic meetings change the words in the 12-steps?  That’s against the rules so that can’t really be AA.
Some meetings use a “God-free” adaptation of the 12-steps and others don’t.  There are no universal conventions among agnostic meetings.  We are autonomous like any meeting.  The 12 steps are important principals.  We stay firm on principal and flexible on method; the wording is not sacred.  We work step without imposing a deity.   If AA was created in the 30s ½ way around the world and Bob and Bill were Buddhists the language would have been quite different but they could have come up with 12 steps to recovery and enlightenment that would have worked just as good as the Big Book first edition wording.  Our experience is that the steps work as a secular exercise.
Non-believers speak a different language than believers.  We take the same steps to recovery.  The action isn’t significantly different – just the wording.  Think of agnostic steps as AA in a different language – when a hand reaches out for help, we want the hand of AA always to be there – no matter what the language.

4)  Aren’t you afraid that General Service will shut you down? 
AA service works as an upside-down pyramid scheme.  Groups are at the top. All levels of service are below with General Service Office at the bottom, serving the groups and service structures above. GSO doesn’t dictate rules to meetings; it works for us and conducts business on our behalf.  We have traditions, not rules so there is no enforcement, punishment or banishment. 
Some Intergroups have discriminated against free-thinker/agnostic groups and won’t print them in the directory.  Maybe they have lost sight of the intent that AA is a mosaic, not a melting-pot.  General Service has greater commitment to Tradition and autonomy.

5)  If we let agnostics and atheists change the steps won’t that open the door to any number of forms of mutilation of our sacred program?  Woman will want the patriarchy out of AA.  Young people will want to refer to God as we understand the dude.
So what if they do? I heard a member proudly declare that a woman’s meeting wanted to change the steps to gender neutral, “but we shut them down.”  He thinks AA was saved from ruin.  I don’t. 
AA didn’t allow African Americans to join AA at one time.  The idea of Gay friendly meetings being recognized in meeting books was once controversial.    Young people’s Groups had some hurdles to cross to be accepted as an AA sub-culture but still part of the whole.  I remember when some AA’s thought churches going non-smoking would be the end of carrying the message.  None of us are comfortable with change.  But AA has adapted before and if and when it stops adapting, extinction is inevitable.

6)  Why isn’t AA good enough for you the way it is?  AA has been so successful – why mess with it?
AA works. How successful we are, is fodder for lively debate.  It’s not unpatriotic to expect more from your country.  It’s not divisive to suggest that AA can adapt to acknowledge people getting sober in AA without God.  We know we are a small subculture.  We don’t want all of AA to change. We exercise our tradition-given autonomy to speak our truth in an authentic way and to extend our hand to newcomers who believe as we do.  That is no threat to AA’s survival.  Rather, we expect our population to grow as fewer newcomers take a pass on our way of life because of our dogma and practices of the steps with a God-centered interpretation.

7)  There is no 12-steps without “God as we understand him.”  How do agnostics stay sober?
Ours is a program of action.  It isn’t what we believe and it’s not what we think that gets us sober.  It’s what we do.  Agnostic steps demand the same workload.  Without a God-consciousness there is less delegating, so maybe it’s more work.  Agnostics face the same hurdles as anyone else in recovery and we have the same experience, strength and hope.

8)  How do you do Step 2 and 3 without God?
“Came to believe and accept that we needed strength beyond our awareness and resources to restore us to sanity” is one of the alternate interpretations of Step 2. It’s not poetry, but it is authentic to many of us.  Again, there is no Agnostic Central Service so many free-thinker groups have drafted steps from scratch while others use agnostic steps that have been around for a while.
Higher power, inner power, power of example – for every member of AA our belief is as individual as our finger print.  There aren’t two camps of AAs: Believers and doubters. Each one of us has a unique way of practicing each step.  Some agnostics articulate the third step as “The key is letting go.  I let go and don’t know.  I just let go.” Others see Step 3 as learning to accept life on life’s terms.

9)  How do you do you work Step 5?
If we are being brutally honest and someone else (a human) is present, it doesn’t really matter what other force is listening.  We still get the benefit.

10) How can there be a Step 6 without God?
We prepare ourselves for change in Step Six.  Like anyone, we look forward to a life that is less encumbered by our short-comings.  Most of us don’t expect a force or deity to grant us anything – not serenity, sobriety, wisdom or courage. Buddhists claim that enlightenment comes from within. We learn from those around us and we commit ourselves to better living.  “Faith without works is dead” is maybe a oft misquoted bible passage which suggests acting good is better than praying to be good; doing the next right thing is more of what Step Six asks the non-theist than asking for the strength to do the next right thing.  Values, our own values, our own inner voice guides us.

11) Step 7 is about Humility.  Can you be humble if you’re not a servant of God?
Humility is a universally accepted principal and practice that all AA’s believers and doubters adapt to as part of sober living.

12) Step 11 is all about prayer and meditation.  Who do you pray too if you don’t believe a deity is listening?
Free-thinkers meditate.  Mindfulness is another tool, like meditation, that fosters awareness and peace.  AA literature espouses the virtue of meditation.  A lot of the talk in the 12 & 12 about meditation is really more about prayer.  Some of us pray.  The secretary of my group calls himself the “praying atheist.”  The benefits of prayer are anecdotal perhaps but they do suggest that putting problems, goals and insights out there, out-loud sometimes, is a positive exercise for sober life.  For some of us, we meditate, some pray, some don’t.

13) Bill Wilson said, “Either God is everything or he is nothing, what shall it be?”
Mark Twain said, “Faith is believing what you know ain’t so.”  Both are alienating statements.  No one has to prove what they believe any more than defend a favorite color.  We need not resolve the questions of the universe.  It’s good enough that everyone respect each other. Nobody’s beliefs are contradictory to the principals behind the 12 steps.

14) How do you practice the traditions without God?
Only one tradition mentions God.  Tradition Two suggest that where there is democracy (group conscience) that there is God’s will.  I think we all believe in the very democratic style of AA and all the other traditions are spiritually based secular concepts that are hard for anyone to argue with once they have studied them and seen them work in practice. 

15) Aren’t you going to kill newcomers by inviting them to dismiss God?
It sounds crazy but I have heard members say just that when they learned we were starting an agnostic meeting in my city.  We were amazed how many people found us online or in the directory and were drawn to our AA group.  Many had been introduced to AA in treatment but felt that regular attendance would be contrary to their core-beliefs.  They like our meeting.  We encourage them to go to other meetings and take what they like – leave the rest.  We tell them, “belief in God isn’t contagious and having someone waving a proselytizing finger at you is not very likely.”  We aren’t looking to dictate to anyone about personal belief.  Everyone is welcome at our meeting, like any other.

16) How do you run a meeting?
There are no prayers at our agnostic meeting.  We close with the Responsibility Pledge.  Other groups change the “Serenity Prayer” to a credo by just leaving out the word “God.”  Sometimes we have a speaker, once a month we read a tradition from the 12 and 12 and discus it.  Most of the time we read a chapter from Living Sober – a secular, common sense approach to getting and staying sober.  Other meetings vary from discussion, step study to speaker.  We have a GSR and we participate in all levels of service like any other meeting such as working in PI and treatment centers.

17) What does Appendix II in the Big Book mean about spiritual awakenings of the educational variety?
The first edition of Alcoholics Anonymous gave the impression that sobriety came only from a God-conscious experience but that notion is erroneous.  Many of our awakenings are secular events born of an open mind and honest exploration. The point is that mental, physical and spiritual recovery is wide open to interpretation.  In Middle America in the mid-20th century, being open minded may have meant both Catholics and Protestants putting their differences aside.  Today it means so much more.

18) What do words like Free-thinker, humanist, doubter or realist mean?
Why can’t a devout Christian or Jew consider themselves liberal or freethinkers?  Of course they can.  For our purposes, “freethinker” is defined as someone who considers the immaterial world, the question of a deity or the hereafter, open ended. 

19) Aren’t you afraid of what you’re doing to AA as a whole?  You will face considerable opposition.  The mere thought of how you conduct yourself is blasphemy to many a strict AA member. 
Some of us will smile and say, “Blasphemy is a victimless crime,” but we know where our opposition is coming from.  Concerned souls love AA and want to protect it so it will be here for them and newcomers.  Through the traditions there are dark warnings that AA’s survival requires vigilance and stewardship.  The classic literature also says that “more will be revealed,” suggesting that AA will be subject to change.  Adaptation is a cornerstone to survival.  We agnostics love AA and care about our future, too.

20) How can someone find an agnostic or Free-thinkers AA meeting?
If you live in a metropolitan centre there may be an agnostic meeting where you are – spend some time with us.  Everyone is welcome.  If you live remote and finding a meeting is improbable, there is http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/aa_freethinkers_meeting/ an online meeting and community that I am part of and I expect if you do a web-search, you’ll find more.  If you want to start a meeting,https://secularaa.org/meetings/ has maps and lists for finding secular meetings + formats for running meetings.


I am not speaking on behalf of anyone.  These are actual questions I have been asked and answers in my own words, based on my own experiences.